That is not a new revelation, yet I think this is why I love music so much. It sets the mood like when you are at a party and all they are playing is gangster rap and you want nothing more than to escape, or it captures a moment like when Vampire Weekend's "Oxford Comma", a song you despise is playing in the background when he finally has the courage to tell you, "I Love You," and now that song makes you smile. Music has been my therapy to get me through a lot of life obstacles, whether it was *NSYNC in middle school to the Foo Fighters in my later teens and adult life, I can always count on a song, melody or band to get me through any phase.
I would say that I have a wide range of music taste. When I want to dance, I put on my favorite pop music (currently Lady Gaga), or when I am angry I scream it out with The Used, but usually after the song(s) I feel better.
Every day when I get to work, the first thing I do is turn on music and the genre that I put on pretty much sets the mood for the day. So why am I writing about music when then is a blog about FMS? As the title suggests, music heals the soul and I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately. In the past month I have had some good news and some bad(but good) news with my job. Since everyone loves good news, I was awarded the highest award you can receive at my job! It felt great since I have been having a not-so-pleasant experience at work lately. I was hoping this was the change for the better. Two weeks later I was told I was getting a pink slip because funding for my position is ending on June 30th. The first thing(s) that came to mind
was, I will no longer have medical benefits. Yes, not having a salary would not be good, but take away my benefits?!?! How would I go to the doctors if I needed to? This was a big bummer. So I went back into my office, put music on shuffle, and out of the blue, I told myself "If 'Shake It Out' by Manchester Orchestra comes on, I know everything will be fine," I pushed play and that exact song came on. I was so excited that I had a huge smile on my face and tears in my eyes. A co-worker came in and asked what I was smiling about--I told her, "everything is going to be okay," and it will be because I have some plans. :) Maybe I shouldn't base my life decisions on a song, but why not?
So this new adventure I am about to take on, let me tell you....I am scared to death and so excited at the same time. I have no idea what is going to happen, but I am preparing myself like none other. I have a feeling that some are not taking my new adventure serious but I am doing this no matter what, even if I have to go at it alone. I am young, and the pink slip was just the push I needed. Did I mention that I am excited?!?! :)
Now back to the music, the other day my ipod was shuffle and the Editors "Bullets" came on. I use to call that song my theme song, not because the lyrics are profound, but because I would scream it on the top of my lungs and sing and dance along. I really wanted to this time too--but I was in my office. So it made me think, with this new adventure, how is the weather, environment, and all the stress going to affect my fibro? I guess this is just another journey to help me find my strengths.
(Now go listen to the Foo Fighters) :) (The photo is Them Crooked Vultures last week at Club Nokia in LA--YAY Dave Grohl)
